Life was going along smoothly. I had lots of plates spinning and kept running from one to another as they slowed down, giving them another turn to ensure they’d stay in the air. But then a wind blew and knocked one of my plates down … and sent me into a tailspin. After all that hard work, my plate crashed on the floor. And the others followed suit.
What do you do when that happens?
I received some news this week that had that effect on me. It stopped me in my tracks and made me reevaluate where I am in life, how far I’ve come, and where I should go from here. (Don’t worry, my health is still fine. It’s not health-related whatsoever.)
I’m a slow processor — a slow cooker of thoughts. I consider different angles and outcomes and try to play them all out in my head before making a final decision, because I don’t want to choose something I’ll later regret. Once I make my decision, I tend to stick with it.
And this is where I find myself: contemplating my next move yet uncertain in which direction to step. Choices abound, but I want to make the right one. There’s no big sign with an arrow on it saying, “Go this way.” But that sure would make this process easier.
Do I continue on my course in the same direction I was headed, accepting this hiccup as a bump in the road? Do I turn and go a different way? Do I scrap the progress I’ve made and do a 180, starting over in the completely opposite direction?
It can be good when moments like these come along to make us rethink our normal and to help us evaluate if we’re on the right track. Although currently in a bit of a quandary, I know what I’m experiencing is a sign of growth. Something big is on the horizon. I just have to head in the right direction.
Christian, wife, mother of 5, breast cancer survivor, marathon finisher, writer and editor, author of "Help! I'm a Science Project"